Nightfall has come again, looking at the dark sky outside the window, looking at the empty space, where am I, and what do I know? Have I really become a fool and an idiot?
Flowers bloom and wither, throughout the four seasons, spring, summer, autumn, winter, what kind of season, what kind of mood, that's how life is!
For the past few days, all I've been doing is thinking, thinking a lot. I've done what I should do and what I shouldn't do, but what have I gained in the end? Is living for others? Torturing myself for the sake of others? The misfortunes of life, the hardships of life, walking all the way, it's really tiring, so tiring. Did God send me to this world to be punished? Or did I do something I shouldn't have done in my past life?
I don't know how it feels to be loved by someone, but who do I love? I'm so confused in my heart, life is really playing a big joke, playing around, in the end, who is playing who, only I know in my heart. Games always have a stopping point, and life also has moments of rest, like a lonely boat drifting on the sea, there must always be a shore to rely on, so that the sea will be calm, right? No, there are no waves without wind. Life is the same, there will be new things happening tomorrow, and we will have to face them, but how do I face everything now? I don't know, really don't know.
Actually, X! For a person, it's easy to say it's easy, and if it's not easy, it's not easy. Just let go of everything, and everything will be natural, and it will all be over.