This summer seems to be coming to an end, and the weather in Guangdong is not as hot anymore. When I first arrived, I had small pimples on my face, and I jokingly called them "youthful beauty pimples." Just as my facial pimples disappeared, I got heat rash on my neck. During this time, I had a toothache from heat, which prevented me from eating for a whole day. By the time I adapted to everything, I was about to leave.
Suddenly, I feel so reluctant to leave, reluctant to leave my mom. Even though sometimes I think she cares too much about me, when I see her tired figure in the workshop, I realize that everything she does is for me and my brother. I shouldn't treat her this way.
I am reluctant to leave Liao*** because his personality is really good. He can tolerate my temper, but sometimes I am also afraid of him. I fear that he can see through me; I don't like the feeling of being dissected. Sometimes when I see him doing various silly actions, I really want to take him home and keep him.
I am reluctant to leave **. We almost argue every day, and sometimes it even gets physical. I often say, "If I could beat you, I would give you three beatings a day, plus an extra dinner." Sometimes he makes me so angry that I want to cry, and other times he makes me laugh so hard that tears fall. The most miraculous thing is that he actually blushes. He also made me fall in love with a song called "Holding Hands."
I am reluctant to leave ** and **. At first, I always mixed up their names, and just when I finally remembered them, these two kids are about to leave. Sometimes I admire them; at just seventeen, they came to work in a strange place without relatives or friends around. They cried from being upset at work, and it breaks my heart to see them. They often speak Cantonese, and I get angry saying, "You should speak Mandarin!" They teach me Cantonese, but as their older sister, I am quite slow and haven't learned a single sentence yet.
I am reluctant to leave ***. It's rare to have a supervisor like her. I used to think my attention to detail and patience were at their peak, but during those few days working under her, all my shortcomings came to light. My constant mistakes caused her a lot of inconvenience, yet she hardly scolded me. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I became a supervisor one day; I would want someone like Liao Wenlong as my assistant.
I am reluctant to leave **. He is so small and so cute. He always runs to my side without saying a word, just quietly sitting there. Once, when he was sick and couldn't take leave, he came to me and said he felt terrible. At that moment, I felt he was still too young to be here; he should be quietly sitting in a classroom like my brother. I often see my brother's obedient side in him, so my feelings for him are very special.
But after today, tomorrow will come, and those who are leaving will leave, and those who won't keep in touch won't. It will be as unfamiliar as when I first arrived. It's been over a month, and as these people leave, my reluctance cannot hold anything back, just as someone said, "I also have to go find my happiness."
Last year, I learned to be a little stronger and more independent. This year, it seems I have realized that I have many shortcomings, and I hope to change them.
I have gained a lot from this summer vacation.